The Meaning of Christmas

I absolutely love Christmas, but when it comes to all the gifts, I kind of get mixed feelings. I mean I truly want to give. I want to give to everyone. I am a giver by nature and I give all the time. Christmas is no different! This year, I planned to give everyone in my family a little something. Nothing costly. Nothing Big. Just something to say, ‘Yes, I think about you. Yes, I appreciate you.’

And of course, being a mom, I am constantly giving to my kids. We make sure they have everything they need, try to get some of what they want, but also end up with a bunch of useless junk just because…..well, because I’m a giver. And as kids frequently do, they ask for everything ALL the TIME! Although, I can’t nor do I want to give them everything they ask for and for a few reasons, I believe giving on a smaller scale is acceptable. When I say small, I mean way smaller scale…as in she wants the $300 Barbie house, but she gets a $10 set of Barbie clothes. Yes, she may be somewhat disappointed because who doesn’t want a Barbie mansion, lol….but, in the end, she is satisfied and I couldn’t ask for more than that.

But this year, I’m just not feeling it. First off, as I said, I planned on giving everyone something to let them know they are in my heart and my thoughts. However, I was soon chastised (for lack of a better word) for wanting to do this. And when I was first chastised, I stood my ground about giving because….well because I’m a giver and just because others may not be doesn’t mean I can’t or shouldn’t be. I have to live with what’s in my heart, my thoughts, my good deeds and bad deeds just as much as others have to live with theirs. I can be the giving person that I am and sleep well even when someone else isn’t.

But then secondly, I thought about what I was chastised about and then decided, maybe I shouldn’t. And to top it all off, I was gonna cancel Santa anyway!

Honestly, I give all the time so if these said people don’t know that they are in my heart and in my thoughts, WTF! But, more than that, I am tired. I am tired of the hustle and bustle. I am tired of trying to be so thoughtful of each and every person I love, but in the end it doesn’t much matter. The aforementioned chastising aggravated the crap outta me and then, to make matters even more aggravating, my girlies have been acting like little stinkers.

And I am just tired.

So, maybe canceling Santa isn’t such a bad idea, after all. That’s right, I said canceling Santa. Rest assured, I am not canceling Christmas. I fully intend to celebrate Christmas with family and friends. We are a religious family and somehow, through all the hustle and bustle of the season, people seem to lose sight of the true meaning of Christmas, including my children. Therefore, Christmas will be celebrated, but not in the way that they have grown so accustomed. Hopefully, it will remind them what Christmas is about. Fingers crossed for that!

Anywho, as Christmas draws closer, hopefully my mood gets a bit jollier. In the meantime, I fully intend to spend some quality time with my kiddos, working hard to turn the ornery-ness into something more positive.

Wish me luck!

As always, friends, thanks for reading.

See y’all back here tomorrow!