Random Musings of One Tired Momma

I am a mother of five boys and four girls….in that order. When my boys were younger, I was excited to watch them grow and turn into young men. I remember envisioning them all surrounding me, towering over me and getting silly excited about that! I am a short woman so to see me with all my tall sons is quite a giggling sight.

And then, of course, imagining their adult years with their own wives and children brought a measure of satisfaction as well. I wasn’t rushing their childhood….I wanted them to stay small forever, but as we all know, that is inevitable.

So, now……we are here. With the loss of my second-born son five years ago, we now have four. All four are moved out and on their own. And three of the four will be married within the next year and a half. My oldest son has a daughter of his own, his fiancé has two daughters of her own and they are expecting their baby boy any day now. We are excited for that!

All of my adult children’s lives are so full and busy, we don’t get to see them as often as we’d like. With that, I don’t get to see my grand-girls as much as I’d like.

And I’m a little bit disheartened for that 😦

Isn’t that horrible? But, before we go any further, let me explain. I am super happy for all four of my boys. As far as I am concerned, they’ve each found a young woman they love who loves them back. Where these relationships will go or how they progress is between each couple. I have nothing but happiness and thankfulness for what each of my boys has found. And I hope nothing, but the best for each one of them.

I am just starting to feel the sadness of seeing each one no longer needing me as much as they did in their younger years.

Did I raise what people like to call ‘momma’s boys.’

Certainly not.

But I will say that I am happy that we raised them to be independent and to know that mom loves them more than life itself.

Oh, the woes of a boy mom.

I guess I would call it the boy-mom syndrome. Mommy’s love their little boys who grow up to be strong, independent, loving men. And when that particular thing happens, we yearn for the little boys we used to snuggle and hold.

To all the mom’s raising a houseful of boys, treasure each moment because soon enough, your little boys will find the woman they will fall in love with and consequently, she will become his go-to person……just as it should be.