Random Musings of One Tired Momma

Hey y’all, it’s been a minute! I’ve been down in the dumps, but I’ve also been working on an autobiography so I’ve been spending a lot of time on that. I’ve also been doing some reading and trying to reconnect with my faith. I believe being down in the dumps stems from withdrawing from my faith. So, here I am.

In order to reconnect, I have been doing some faith reading. I recently read a book called God’s Will. I was drawn to this particular book because of the title itself as I have found myself questioning God’s will for my life quite frequently of late. However, after reading the book, it wasn’t quite what I thought it was, but still a good read so look it up! I also finished a book called The Children’s Blizzard. This book is somewhat fiction, but based on a true event. I’m not all together sure if one would call it a true story or not, assuming not because not all of it happened, but the event itself did happen.

And right now, I am reading a book by Matthew Kelly called Holy Moments and another book called Unveiled: Tamar’s Story. The latter is not a Catholic read as far as I know, but it is a story of Tamar from the Bible. It the story all biblically factual? That remains to be seen, I have only just started the read. As for Matthew Kelly, he is absolutely a well-known Catholic author, I think….assumed from many of his books being available throughout the Catholic churches. Again, I say assume. I could be wrong.

With that said, I have recently started reading his book below. Again, I am trying to reconnect with my faith and reading does help me with that. But this isn’t a post about reading, per se. While reading this book just tonight, I have been thinking about Holy Moments in my own life. Do I recognize them for what they are? Do I ignore them completely? But first, what is a holy moment? After doing a little of the reading, I got the impression that a holy moment is, quite simply in my mind, a moment of kindness…..one, small, seemingly insignificant moment of kindness that otherwise brightens someone else’s moment in that time.

Does that make sense?

Six years ago, when my son passed away, I launched a non-profit. It has since been disbanded (for lack of a better word), but during the two operational years, prior to Covid-19, as part of the non-profit, I began a kindness club, so to speak. Every week or so, the little group that I had (mostly friends’ kids and my own nieces/nephews), would do a kindness project that somehow uplifted the community, such as making cards for an elderly facility. I was intentional in my planning. My requirements were simple: the project had to be uplifting and it had to be something that would brighten someone else’s day.

Over the years, I have tried to plant these seeds in my own children, but have fallen away from it…..completely of my own doing.

After starting this read, the seeds have again been planted in me. Tomorrow is a New Year! And it’s the perfect time to begin anew!

I have learned that when I set a goal, I don’t follow through. For that reason, I am simply living day by day. Not always intentional as in following a plan, but intentional in living in the day and ceasing whatever opportunities arise that make me a better human or promote my love of family.

Last year or the year before, I tried to use this forum to keep myself accountable for reading so I put together a list, at about this same time, and posted it to this forum. I didn’t follow through. A year is a long time! I don’t know about anyone else, but I start out strong, I start out with motivation and slowly I begin to lose the strength and motivation until the goal is not more. It simply gets out on the shelf with every other goal I’ve tried to set for myself.

I have given up on goals!

The only promise I make today is to think, act, pray, behave more intentional.

It’s a good goal, isn’t it!?!

Anywho, Happy New Year! Let’s be intentional!